So my Army training taught me whenever you reach a point of exhaustion ( when you just cannot do it anymore -physically, emotionally or mentally) just soldier on, push through, rough it out, suck it up and do some more anyway. It was drilled into us you are not worthy of being called a soldier if exhaustion beats you. At that impressionable age Worthiness got equated with Doing.
I wore exhaustion like a BADGE OF HONOUR. I would do and do and do some more till I couldn’t do anymore and then I would do more. If I was making a presentation and no ideas were coming forth, I was feeling stuck..yet I would be sitting hours on end trying to get it right.
Child has kept me awake all night, I am tired to the bone, hair on my head is standing in Savdhan (attention) position yet I am trying to make lunch, fix the cushions or set the almirah or even better offering to make beaten coffee for visitors.
I could go on..but I am sure you get my point.
I have learnt that exhaustion, tiredness is a sign that a need isn’t being met, an emotion isn’t being expressed, or a void isn’t getting filled.
If I could tell that girl who was doing and then doing some more, I would ask her to just STOP I would tell her
IT IS OK IF TODAY EVERYONE EATS BREAD
IT IS OK IF YOU SAID YES TO SOMETHING AND YOU COULDN’T COMPLETE IT
IT IS OK IF YOUR HOME IS NOT PICTURE PERFECT
IT IS OK TO SAY I AM TIRED AND I AM GOING TO REST
IT IS OK IF IT TAKES TWO MORE DAYS TO SET UP THE HOUSE
Whenever you feel, exhausted overwhelmed, frustrated, burdened, stop and ask yourself:
Where do I feel deprived?
What do I need more of right now?
What do I need less of?
What do I want right now?
And then journal your answers. Follow through with what gets revealed, you will come back better, refreshed and energised.
Remember – Awareness is a powerful catalyst for positive change.
